My Thoughts; Heaven

Thursday, July 31, 2008

i dunno wad i do la. i juz say something nia

Huixuan *********.blogspot.com says (2:16 AM):
idiotic. spasm. perverted.
Huixuan *********.blogspot.com says (2:16 AM):
LOOOOL

liddat lo. so huan lo.

today post is coz i found someone's blog somehow. was really touching & wanted to share it.
i wun look at the world the same way before.

this is it :

I never wanted a blog, but times are getting so hard.
There's so much I want to say, & this, is for you.

I feel like I've drafted this blog post forever, but yet,
when I'm typing it out now, I can't recall all those snippets.

*female name a* , imy.

I realy miss all those times.

I've lost all the luck, at the traffic lights.

I haven't eaten the cup noodle since the last time we did.

I haven't gone crazy the way I do only in front of you & *female name b* in the longest time.

I can't read your messages cos it just makes me feel worse.

I haven't had a proper convo with you in ages.

I haven't heard you say something & meant it for some time now.

I haven't seen you w/o liner & with your specs for months.

I can't look at your friendster anymore cos it just hurts.

I can't run around in parkway w you anymore.

I can't believe what you're saying anymore.

I need to know you're still there, but this wish seems so hopeless.

There's no one left , did you know?

No one I can fully trust at the moment, cos people hide stuff.

I thought I could count on you, as cliched as best friends forever sounded.

I'm holding on to nothing now.

I'm the strongest in front of you, maybe you don't know.

Have I cried alot in front of you?

Not until recently, you see it and you don't know what to do.

I've tried my very best.

But when I'm at my weakest point, you're not there.

You're out, having fun.

I'm at home, crying.

No more, love.

There's no more friendship, is there?

You make it sound like you really care,

& that you'll never leave.

But now you're gone, you're gone.

& I don't know what to do about it.

Should I move on w/o you, or stand behind to catch you if you fall.

"Bestie, I am thinking so much. It's been long since we shared."

I held faith in you for so long the way you want me to-

"Look up at the stars and you'll know I'm still there."

I wish I could, but the stars are all gone now.

I'll keep every single promise, every single one.

I have.

Have you?

<3

p.s. Read the letter I wrote to you on your birthday last year.

feeling so sweet ; 2:25 AM;Y

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

AMANDA. Round Biscuit! says (2:33 AM):
no matter how incapable your people may be, at least you know you've done more than you should be doing
AMANDA. Round Biscuit! says (2:33 AM):
and you shud treat it as a bonus
AMANDA. Round Biscuit! says (2:33 AM):
cosh you're surpassing your other friends

siala. someone said this. i cant believe it o.o
i really take mi hat off to this girl.
she's not going for her gems Module again later today for the 6th time. skipped/missed 80% of her classes during the first few months of sch this year and last year. managed to get MC for some of them though. works till the wee hours each day. usually i still her online at around 4-5am.

and i thought i was one of the worst around. she smokes too. like all other smokers, to forget their problems. no sleep + smoke + work + school. has problems in school and with class & at home. when i learnt of her class problem. it was like =.=! wtf? business girls can be so bitch? although i knew that but to this extend? _|_ fark off man.

den today i learnt of new things that make me more dulan. den the day ended with a 100min dota with fucking backdoorers. potm, clockwerk, morphling all 3 got manta + other farmed items. knn backdoor backdoor. and we got a fucking noob feeder luna. level 7 score 0-3 at around 20min. *yi has left the game* luckily he left, if nt we may nt win afterall.

lastly, i know mani of u read dis blog but y nv tag siol? lol x( i so scary meh.

and a big sorry to all those in msn who always talk to me but i reply late/ur offline when i come back. im very very busy. i dun even have time to open the door for my parents.

now also cannot sleep yet. everyday do shit till dunno wad time. always do until can see ahma and uncle downstairs excesizing liao. wtf? somemore later i 6am need go somewhere b4 going sch. dunnid slp le la. 8am presentation interview. 1/3pm got F1 briefing.

feeling so sweet ; 2:42 AM;Y

Monday, July 28, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HX! YAY! wooo *fireworks*

ok now on to other things LOL. okkkk. there are a few things that happened.

the unhappy things first. met jiehui today at 6pm. he was alone at fc6. i was wondering what he was doing there. in the end i found out that he was doing work or something and why? his harddisc and laptop both crashed. resulting in loss of all his files. including his 2months report (schoolwork). i know how he feels though. although my losses were not as much as his. i only lost my harddisc and in it were alot of movies/anime that i painstakingly lagged everyone in my household for 2months to download. my condolenses to him. really.

another thing was that things werent going my way at all today. everything that i planned backfired. come on. i screwed up many things. & that some facts i learnt today wasnt very pleasing. in fact, it was the opposite.

good things. well there were some good things which happened. FINALLY gotten hold of those 2 gal de friendster =) =) *fireworks* lol but i see their life like all clubbing nia. x( kinda sad. wasted haix.

den ppl birthday got NUM bag siol. $150. mi birthday i got... condoms.. &.. a dick weight lifter? lol the thought is there but =/glad for tt person.

hope tomorrow is better. thx to all who comforted and talked to me these few days.

&& ziyi u all no more outing ah? so boring liao =(

feeling so sweet ; 11:14 PM;Y

Friday, July 25, 2008

HuiHui is 58 now. =) having 403 matk (magic attack)
Alpha is still 65. boo. 94%.

wailiang topped me in Word Challenge in Facebook. knnpcb LOL. tonight will chiong win u or no sleep hahahahaha _|_

completed 2 portions of assignments. (miracle)

ton sch + nxt day chiong assignment = 3days @ 5hrs sleep (2hrs in sch)

& here comes my whining.

i was totally pissed and down yesterday & today. i couldnt bring myself to think happy thoughts or anything. it was just so annoying and everything that ticked me off even a little, i would jump at him/her. yes females arent spared either. reason why? u can guess. there're so many people i wanna tell them to fuck off in their faces (plural). but why not? yes, call me coward. im afraid things might blow up and result in another xiaoyuanyuan case of ostracizing. (sec sch people shld know wad/who i mean). do not ask who you are for you know it yourself. you lie & exxagerate through your teeth to save face. i do not expose you in front of everyone as i know you would just open your god damn blardy mouth and sprout some nonsense and take it like it never happened.

i feel so good just saying all these. now i know why some girls like blogging so much.

some of you farktards deem me as useless? well ur so damn fucking wrong.
a capable person does not need to tell anyone how capable he is. all everyone needs to do is just open their eyes and see what they can do and they will know the answer themselves. but wtf are u? if im F-Grade. come on? ur mom sold herself to give u a chance here? ur not even worth mentioning.

and to mention one particular girl, the world DOES NOT revolve around u. bitch. think again. i reply you just to 应酬 u only. aye, for some reason, ive no more mood doing this. just by remembering u.

this is POLY man. i keep telling myself this.

"where u treat them like brother, they treat u like dog"

cya all. take care

feeling so sweet ; 10:48 PM;Y

Monday, July 21, 2008

yea man! im level 65 already woot.

& lol. im going to sleep early today.
heres 2 stories which i found. kinda funny tho so i tot i wud post em here.

A man escapes from prison where he has been for 15 years. He breaks into a house to look for money and guns and finds a young couple in bed.

He orders the guy out of bed and ties him to a chair, while tying the girl to the bed he gets on top of her, kisses her neck, then gets up and goes into the bathroom. While he's in there, the husband tells his wife:

"Listen, this guy's an escaped prisoner, look at his clothes! He probably spent lots of time in jail and hasn't seen a woman in years. I saw how he kissed your neck." If he wants sex, don't resist, don't complain, do whatever he tells you. Satisfy him no matter how much he nauseates you. This guy is probably very dangerous. If he gets angry, he'll kill us. Be strong, honey. I love you."

To which his wife responds: "He wasn't kissing my neck. He was whispering in my ear. He told me he was gay, thought you were cute, and asked me if we had any vaseline. I told him it was in the bathroom. Be strong honey. I love you too!!"

Girl: "Forgive me father for I have sinned."

Priest: "What have you done my child?"

Girl: "I called a man a son of a bit**."

Priest: "Why did you call him a son of a bit**?"

Girl: "Because he touched my hand."

Priest: "Like this?" (as he touches her hand)

Girl: "Yes father."

Priest: "That's no reason to call a man a son of a bit**."

Girl: "Then he touched my breast."

Priest: "Like this?" (as he touched her breast)

Girl: "Yes father."

Priest: "That's no reason to call him a son of a bit**."

Girl: "Then he took off my clothes, father."

Priest: "Like this?" (as he takes off her clothes)

Girl: "Yes father."

Priest: "That's no reason to call him a son of a bit**."

Girl: "Then he stuck his you know what into my you know where."

Priest: "Like this?" (as he stuck his you know what into her you know where)

Girl: "YES FATHER, YES FATHER, YES FATHER!!!"

Priest: (after a few minutes): "That's no reason to call him a son of a bit**."

Girl: "But father he had AIDS!"

Priest: "THAT SON OF A BIT**!!!"

=) well nights. im feeling more pissed off lately, guess its the mid-age crisis & ageing (damn im only 18 years old) .

miss u guys really. sec sch & pri sch frens who gone to jc/poly. no time to meet up le ah? find time we go play or ton somewhere leh. now boring liao.

feeling so sweet ; 12:06 AM;Y

Friday, July 18, 2008

wtf? i really wan write suicide note liao. issues from ANNUAL DINNER & DANCE event & alot more. haish =( emo emo

lol teasing valerie about getting bloated from prata relieved my headache abit. shes always so image-consious la. bwg. useless people. =x listening to Digimon music helped too. sharing a laugh with people on msn helped somewhat.

so lets start from ADD ( Annual Dinner & Dance ). well u see. this event is due to HAPPEN NEXT YEAR around FEBRUARY to MARCH. but i saw the EEEC ( Electrical Engineering dunno wadeva la-maybe-first-2-word-oso-wrong Club. ) painting their ADD Banner already. wtf? i take my hat off to them. that triggered me to make my stand & make my first meeting on monday. i even had Bastian (super imba busy machiam businessman to answer my queries and send his stuff to me ) Bastian was last year's Annual Dinner & Dance event chair, damn pro guy, makes me feel inferior. *omfg i cant believe i said that?*

he had an elite team - no i mean good team of people supporting him. that includes jingshi. mi pri sch friend & poly campus / schoolmate. now im looking at my group of year 1s? sorry i mean no offence or anything but. judging by the way things are. one of the questions asked were " hey i do this event got sometimes can skip school? " wah i jitao sian. ADD is not easy. ive asked almost everyone involved with ADD last year. they told me that DMIT (my school)'s ADD is the hardest if not 2nd hardest coz of the amount of people and the fucking non-enthu crap of our school.

i had msn'ed afew people earlier telling them about coming for the first meeting this coming wednesday. wah pcb got 1 or 2 make it seem like i talk to them i shld feel fucking honoured? like i want to ask them sia. wtf? like so busy pcb _|_ assignments? projects? noooooooooooooooooo. go out play, chalet etc. the one who cb me say he not free. i ask him do wad. he say nothing but not free. wtf? he can fuck off. i can forget about such crap. i dun need burdens. as long as u are willing to 'help' or do work. i dun mind anyone even if u made a mess out of it.

" No one will laugh at you if you are seen trying your best " - (forgot where i hear b4)

this is very meaningful. ive thought about it before. if i were to see a lousy shit playing dota or cs. but i can see he is putting in effort or anything i would not flame him. instead i would encourage him.

hmm enough about that crap. i have no mood to continue anymore. this sux. if any year 1s or year 2s helping out were to see this. they should not be you coz i dunno dem really well.

cya all around.

BY THE WAY I GOT MY WINGS & BOW! WORTH USD$102! which i traded for some ingame items & all my money. FTW! WONDERLAND LEVEL 64 BY TOMORROW. IM A GENIUS!

feeling so sweet ; 1:12 AM;Y

Saturday, July 12, 2008

@replies :

shiyun - total nonsense. im now just populating the whole server with dinosaurs <3>

enqi - hahaha. =(

huixuan - ill squeeze ur tiny brains out x.x ( if u have any, that is :x )

yahoo! ive 'talked' a guy into selling me a CASH ITEM (US$50) for 250k in game gold. well i didnt scam him. its just that im buying it from him at the lower end price and.. nvm. haha x) he promised he would deal it tomorrow as he needs to sleep and buy the items using cash. x.x damn those rich ang mohs. they earn well, party everyday, drink, womanise and still get bootlicked by people of my skin colour. _|_

enough of that lol. if i continued i will drag blacks in.

heng i passed the 2 presentations on friday though hahaha. nice right. im so pro. woot. den i learnt that EEE club has a rule that they cannot lend out their basketballs or equipment to NON-EEE people. wah knn pcb i wan scratch their glass le. lol. & then i pointed out the black and white girls to SHEL aka tingting. coz she was wondering who they were . x= dey hot siol.

den today sent my phone for repairing. will only see it on thursday. dun wry i can still be contacted @ 92375778 coz im using old phone T_T

ive still got too many things to blog. think ill only upload 1 pic as its 2x exp now and ill lag like crap coz im torrenting + running multiple clients >.<

DMIT Main Committee (Bunch of Losers actually)
Including Me

friday : broke my 2nd pair of CROCS slippers ($50) wtf man. i swore nv to play bball wif CROCS and i did again! zzz. sux la. emo. but the movie "red cliff" and dinner @ burger king made up for it. LOL! the movie inside got this army under Zhou Yu. the Wu Army. got one part one of the soldiers was AHNEH! LOL! knn imba funny. i laugh out out. really LOL. and linzhiling extra sia, only know how to do ahem & jajdnasd. and jealous the loser Zhou Yu. hmph!

hahaha & good luck to all those studying especially those JC & MI people i know.

feeling so sweet ; 9:43 PM;Y

Monday, July 7, 2008

hi all.
sorry been inactive as ive been very very very busy. sobs.

@replies

shuwei - meanie hmph. lol ill try to update more often
joan aka Guest- i porney? be careful later i see u in sch rape u
bei - u juan ah? hmm dunno who is bei. nice. my brother 2days jitao 30 liao.
shiyun - i not wonderland-nig la. ok la abit wonderland lo. =x 24hrs remoting nia. just that im really busy. hais. x) ill try.

kinda glad my wonderland account is level 60 already, huihui is 52 x( . made alot of enemies lately in that game. ArchSeraph - no.1 on my list. yet i made alot of friends and allies plus gained alot of 'fame' and 'respect' in that server. i can safely say i am top 50 in that server already, if not top 30. nelson has quit playing and i fugging accidentally disbanded my own guild? wtf? i made so many people quit their guilds and jump boat to mine. im super guilty la.

the last few events ive participated in were the Movie Marathon & alot of crap. slept less than 2hrs since friday morn - sunday night. in between i had a bbq session at ry's house, dimsum at Zi Yean Restaurant at Orchard, alot of oily and fried food. gonna die soon sobs x(

*advertisement* "i saw those 2 gals during the last 3 schooldays, meaning weekdays."
1st day - Black & White
2nd day - White(Formal) & Blue
3rd day - Black & Black

wanted to go cosplay thing during the weekends. first day i was invited by jerome but i uber busy ah. 2nd day diff person but i damn tired/need sleep/busy/eat dimsum. i nearly chocked from laughter at the dimsum restaurant when i heard thx was going as loli. wtf? loloollolx1000.

now im blogging coz i haf spare time during class. other than surfing webs & forums during school. i have nothing else to do. the lectures given only cures imsomnia. i can safely say ive not really listened in class this year. cui la. now the lesson is a friggin nigger coupled by a FUCKING useless pcb china-lookalike cher. i bet he got to be a cher by selling his mum x) .

this useless teacher goes by the name of James Ang. *sry weishan*. hes so useless he teaches by notes. and when we go thru a quiz. he refers to the answers and when most of us get the answer wrong and it was his cue to explain. he would search frantically for the answer in his notes. if he couldnt find any, which he NEVER succeeded in finding any, he would say let it be. *wtf he just walked pass, lucky this text is so long he see oso wun see tio wad i writing siol. lol*

anyway will be back for often. cya and thx for viewing =.= lol

will post AGM & Movie Marathon pics the next time i post. x) sry haven upload. who ask u all ask me bring my camera dun wan use u all de hahahahaha

feeling so sweet ; 4:30 PM;Y