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7 conversations.
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1 dead conversation... now i have time to blog.

today i woke up feeling shocked.
i had a nightmare, the first non-emotional nightmare
i had in like half my life.
it was so shocking that i woke up seeing my phone,
at the setting alarm page.

the setting was at my auntie's house in K.L.
i was with my brother, we were in the front seats,
and a woman was in the back, she started saying,
that her house had a ghost.
" there's a ghost outside my window "

so i and my bro exited the car and asked her to
follow us, she didn't want to. we tried convincing her,
because i felt she would die like in those shows,

so we left her there and went into the house,

*shall skip afew parts*

my bro started running like playing catch with me,
like wanna scare me when popping out of the corner,
so i started chasing him back and when i turned a corner,
i saw my other uncle standing there and smiling at me.

i felt so much shock, i didnt know why!
i woke up feeling damn awake.
i shouted for my dad to sms him to ask
whether he ok anot. ):

den my father said he still sleeping,
heng sia. i tot wad. i tot something might have
happened to him. because the house had a ghost,
and why was he standing there smiling at me?

fuck sia. damn scary. den i came home late today,
i told my dad the story, and he said, that place was
just sold to a buyer 2 days ago, on sunday. WTF?

i didnt know of such a thing happening and i dreamt
of it. hmm i dunno how to link such things but fuck.
so spooky.



fuck, 2 days left and nothing has changed. i'm useless. Sorry ****

Things You Would Never Know Without Indian Movies
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1. A man will show no pain while taking the most ferocious beating but will wince when a woman tries to cleanse his wounds.

2. The hero cannot fall in love with the heroine(vice versa) unless they first perform a dance number.

3. Once applied, make-up is permanent, in rain or in any other situation.

4. Two lovers can be dancing in the field and god knows out of nowhere, 100 people will appear from god-knows-where and joins them in the dance.

5. In the final scene, the hero will discover that the bad guy who he is up against is actually his brother and the maid who looked after him is his mother and the chief inspector is his father and the Judge is his uncle and so forth.

6. Key English words used in the movie (usually said out loud between sentences) are No Problem!, My God!, Get Out!, Shut-up!, Impossible!, Please forgive me!

7.They drop down on grounds and roll and roll while singing and came out with different clothings.

8.They can run around the coconut trees, singing, battling eyelid, and throwing glances at each other and change clothes all at the same time without being out of breath.

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Things You Would Never Know Without Chinese Swordsman Movies
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1. Being the hero's parents will always be unlucky and will usually be killed by enemies when the hero is young, and the hero will become an orphan.

2. When a man is wounded and dying, he always manage to catch his breath and speak a few sentences to reveal the killer before dropping his head and declare dead.

3. Skilled people are able to fly over roof tops, up trees and across distances without any sweat. But when travelling to towns and villages, they still have to walk or ride horses.

4. The heroes need not have to work for money, but will always have golds and silvers with them to pay for their dishes.

5. The heroes and villains will meet each other very often no matter how big the country is and no matter where they are.

6. Healing internal wounds in the body is as easy as sitting down cross-legged, palms on the knees and smoke coming out from the head.

7. They can keep alot of stuff in their sleeves and
waistband and never drop them.Especially alot of gold and silver ingots...




thanks to ch who so boliao paste me this quite sometime ago (:

anyway i was enjoying the wind at t17 when i looked out into the sky,
i had this running through my mind.

" life is full of questions, like " where are the answers?' "

3 days left. im still praying.

school starts tomorrow, here i am, sitting alone.
phone finally put on silent, not gonna entertaining
any calls or sms from now till school. (:

i'm very sorry everyone, i have been neglecting everyone.
my friends, buddies, family. sorry. i have never told a lie
regarding why i'm always afk. please don't doubt me.

i felt like fuck when my mother sms-ed me one day,
asking whether i hated her or what, as i always do not reply
her smses and am always outside. even when i had to
overnight somewhere, i would not tell her, i would just leave.

***

anyway, i'm so sorry april ! hahaha. that night really forget
is ur birthday, somemore sms u talk abt rubbish LOL!

***

plus coming to my gems class on wednesday,
i'm taking love and relation, a module i feel... is kinda sissy
but i really learnt alot in the first lesson itself.

lesson starts at 1pm. i called shel, she was busy lol.
i waited at t17 below there at auditorium for her.
coz i was scared to go class alone. den after awhile,
i saw jiehui, behind him was sandra and shunya.
wa, i asked dem they wad gems, b4 they tell me,
i knew we same gems le. hahahhaa (:

den, they went up, i was left alone at auditorium.
soon weiliang and douglas came wan crash my class.
den i suddenly rmb first day usually got introduction,
so dey went off. den i call shel, she was having pizza
at fc5 D: . i dare nt go in!!! so i went play daidi till she came.

when we enter, i saw people i knew, was kinda glad :]
a gems where i knew 5 of the gals and no one knew i know dem :D
hehe. den finally it went on and on~

i found something the teacher said very meaningful and somewhat truthful,

"when you are satisfied with yourself, only are u ready to go into a relationship"

i was dumbfounded. no way i could repeal this on the spot.
and hahahaa. i gained newfound respect for someone that day.
she said this :

" Why do u tink we gals dress up, wan good figure etc?
it's because you guys don't want to lose face when going
out with someone that's why we do these so u guys will
want us. "

i won't reveal who said this but it was somewhere along
this lines. although u sounded.. very embarassed, i really
take my hat off to you, so far, i have never taken my hat
off to anyone except one person. you're the 2nd.

and don't slap me (: i wun reveal what u said as well. haha.

anyway, after that i headed to fc5 where i met lychee
face to face for the first time. :D really a xmm. hahaha.

den the whole day i was doing missions. damn sian. argh.


4 days left ):

Happy Birthday April (:

glad u enjoyed yourself hahaha.
plus i really do hope those un-pleasantries around you disappear.


i kept having this dream for 2 days in a row.
i always believed dreams give us insight,
not the truth, not what is to happen,
but showing us somethings in which we can, of course,
learn from or reflect from.
i hope this stops.


anyway, i guess i am only giving myself another 5 days.

change is constant.
& with time, change is inevitable.

attitudes change
characters change
personalities change
opinions change
dreams change



people change
targets change

I changed



but for me, some things will never, ever, change. i promise

just added a flag counter for fun hehe. (:

anyway, 3hrs of sleep aday is definitely a no-no.
try to sleep earlier, ur not young anymore, kaweng.

i am not stupid. (:

i always wondered.
why is everyone so interested about this blog.
im getting hits like siao. so many different people.
not since this year. since i opened this blog.
so that's why i will never blog important stuff here. );
even people 2-3times my age are trolling this blog. (obvious?)
i don't have any idea why they do so.

but anyway, thanks (: im flattered.
nxt time do leave a tag. thanks hahaha.


annyeonghi jumushipshio
(joan teach de)

slept 5am. woke 6am. dad drive go eat 8am.
home 10am. queensway 2pm. orchard 4pm.
movie 530pm. botak jones 8pm. 9pm pool.
home 12am

damn tired. spent $66.
& not a single pair of clothes bought =.=

anyway, had fun. thanks guys (:


just remembered alex lo tin chee, my dunearn SS cher.
he came to SP DMIT wif dunearn ppl that day.
he doesnt rmb me scolding him chee bye.
good job. i nearly kena caning for that hahaha.

hmm, ohya today go queensway i called amanda choy
ask her help me find ticket timing. but she at redhill going cine.
i also going there later. so qiao hahahaha. den i reach le,
she at xin wang, i at btm floor. den later i walk pass xinwang go
see movie, i didnt manage to meet her. ):

after movie she at 3rd floor i at botak jones. when walking back
to cine, i called her again, she just left, at that time
walking pass heeren. hais.

totally no fate hahahaha.

but anyway, today see alot chiobu ^^ somemore is.. "special guest"

its raining. i wonder if it meant anything ):
i should go to sleep but i wonder what's stopping me.
i seriously don't know. is it the day's up and downs?
is it my headache? or is it your fucking attitude?

aye, in another 2hrs time, i need to be awake.
let's make use of this precious time.
time left before school starts.

i felt kinda sad, because i couldnt find my sec sch class pics.
fark this, every year i will buy all 3 copies laminated and blown up.

just now, being bored, i clicked on afew of my links,
to other people's blogs. 2 sec sch frens, 1 sister.
all 3 of them had my name in there, for positive reasons.
thanking me, including me etc. well wishes.

i really do feel.. appreciated. (:

thanks.


and things i wanna say to people:

feiwen : hope u get ur ps3 (:

enqi : i understand your plight, trust me, but i don't know what to say & do as i do not have the answers to your questions.

april : hey girl, thanks for being random with me 24hrs LOL! mi whole inbox now macham only got ur name hahaha. u must tc leh. dun drift liao. like me ):

shel : weird sia call u shel hahaha, TING TING. anw, thanks for being my listening ears and err, being so on plus plus i really really feel for u luh. abt ur school thing. ):

all the freshies whom i have been speaking frequently to :

CYA GUYS ARND IN DMIT :D



omfg a sibei random post. wtf

One can only feel desolate for so long
Until one starts to change
Into something the mirror doesn't recognize

(EDIT) FOUND LOL!

ps: those who frequent my blog will know who :x

its 5am.

im wide awake. i wonder why. maybe i should be like someone. blaming myself. every night. till i lose myself.

today i dreamt of chuimei, wtf? kinda weird huh?
totally no link LOL! and i slept till 3:30pm.
den i woke up and started thinking about things.

how nice if everyone i knew before played together
in a online game. everyone playing together,
against each other. building up that world together.
creating histories, legends. going on quests together.

hais.. now im alone with ch. zy, eric, jacky, shuwei go NS le.
wen everyday JC, amanda busy wif work, shel dunno doing wad lol
mi sec sch friends all working oso.

ch oso go clubbing nia eh. or mahjong everyday.
everyday im staying home. listening to sob stories.
disturbing people, being random, owning noobs.

replies:

enqi: thanks alot yeah ((:

neW: yeah, thanks for the support all these while,
its my fault because im rather preoccupied with my problems.
i need time, something im not given.. sorry.

corrine: heya girl ((:

back from prep and normal camp. sibei de shag.
SHEL aka TING TING slept for 14hrs straight.
me only 7hrs actually. knnb mi hp on silent.
got some smart ass still wake me up.

i farking busy luh. no time to blog even. hais.

after prep camp:

1st Day (Friday): Mahjong 2 Rounds at ppl house. Reach home another round.
2nd Day (Saturday): Movie ( Shinjuku Incident )
& Pool ( Went off early coz got dinner somewhere )
3rd Day (Sunday): Going to timah for lunch outing, farewell dinner to jie later.
Dinner out with Relatives from msia.
4th Day (Monday): FOP. hehehe. can get to see the who liao :P



and today i dreamt of her. it was a nightmare coz... hais.
i swear, if i have another one like that, i think i will break down.
heng i had that nightmare. if nt i wun wake at 1pm.
when i supposed to meet @ 1.20pm for movie.
better late than never. hahahahha.
bad thing coz... that scene made me kinda sad uh. ):


(left) huishi with my crocs at sentosa
my feet bigger than hers LOL!










thanks for buying me one father (:
this is like my 10th crocs slippers. keep spoiling.

and sorry to everyone, especially the sec sch gang,
amanda, wendy, april, shuwei, jian wen, eric, chong hao.
i either reply to ur msn & sms rather slowly or nonsensically,
coz im kinda trapped in my own thoughts. oblivious to everything.
): going out is a way to feel alive. thats why im dont deny anything
that fills up my schedule.

and is it that obvious im emo? shiyun said afew things that made me think.
u guys are humans after all. u all are smart and can piece things together.

the next time i' draw a circle in a corner', ill do it with a smile so i may get away with it.