My Thoughts; Heaven

Monday, August 31, 2009

wooot~ 40mins before leaving for sushi~

this morning was darn sleepy. went for lunch
at twelve, saw xian zhen. sit at her table den
fell asleep. woke up got drool on table LOL!
10mins nap also can drool wtf wtf. den i fake
her take my green tea spill abit xD

den went to tapao lunch, saw emily. now den
i realise really alot of schools come here for exams.
emily is oooooooh~ so hot! (:

den went back, saw yijing kaiting & frens waiting lift,
their gang hoh, raid the lift i tell u even lecturer also
mati, so i walked up the stairs to t20. from t20 i
looked over t21, saw the xmm kaiting running arnd
run to level 5, hahahaa. idiot.

how i wish i can sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep

feeling so sweet ; 4:49 PM;Y

" I realized that everyone had a story to tell:
The auntie selling fish soup may have the most
romantic love story; my old and stubborn Literature
lecturer Mrs Goh may have the most tragic story to
tell.

Yet I always pondered on the poignancy of my own story,
as if my story superseded all of theirs. "

this is a nice quote from a story i read ages ago.
people have to learn this, putting others above urself.

think this post is gonna be a short 1, nid to be up by 6 later.

yesterday never sleep coz emo. emo coz of a problem
i caused and cause of the person i was on the phone with.

45mins of tearful sobs mixed with words i listened to.
before that was ok ): hais. den i also emo.

emo liao will drink 3-5 bottles of vitamilk. ):

porridge, went to panjang collect contacts from ch,
den go back home prep go IMM Bali Thai. den excused myself
hopped onto the bus wif furtard & rebond hair. LOL
also bought my bro's birthday present. den i saw wad
i wanted to buy for huishi. ): cant decide though.

reached vivo den walk arnd find my skullcandy headphones,
cannot find. keep see alot xmm~ ahlians woo~

den booked tix for final destination. kinda funny and
not as scary as wendy and kel described. damn.

watched liao go walk arnd 'shop'. den go eat dunno wad
buffet at the dunno wad restaurant. chinese tea owned
again hais~. tomorrow.. i mean today still got sakae leh.
at tanjong pagar somemore, all those clubbers
waiting go the play club SCHOOL'S OUT PARTY.

PLUS YAY!!! FRIDAY GONNA MEET THE GANG
& AMANDA & FOR DINNER! 吃死我uh. cb.

feeling so sweet ; 3:50 AM;Y

Sunday, August 30, 2009

6:15am. going nap for 30mins. back home later den update.
going porridge again~ wooo. going vivo 2pm. arghh.

no rest for poor me ):

feeling so sweet ; 6:17 AM;Y

Friday, August 28, 2009

guess i did it again. its 3am.. nid go get up at 630 later. pcb.

hmm nth special happened today i guess. or i cant rmb (:
ohya! got a funny one, dis kuku was sending me a song,
den i tease her abit, den she say " give back the song ".
LOL!!! really kuku HAHAHAHA!! *chokes on teras*

ok luh~ need meet furtard.. i mean furtado go sch 7am.

feeling so sweet ; 2:51 AM;Y

Thursday, August 27, 2009

if i were to wake up tomorrow, in a different bed,
in a different time, in a different house, in a different
world altogether. how wonderful would it be?

living in an abandoned hut in the middle of some forest
seems appealing. where i wake up everymorning to
chop firewood to get some mushroom soup brewing. (:
ahh, a simple life, devoid of all vices and evil and useless
emotions. maybe a pet for company.

but my parents, most importantly, i love them and i will
repay them and take care of them when they grow old.

so please, if this fantasy begins, well i dont know.
how would this story end?

anw gotta call someone le. not much sleep again for me. nites

feeling so sweet ; 12:48 AM;Y

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

its 430am, i opened my fb chat and saw a rare sight.
april was online. omg?!?! hahaahaa. instant " yo ".

really shld be sleeping soon yeah, nid to leave house
by 715am. damn hais. nid sardine wif uncle auntie.

anw today lunch with 2 people @ subway fc5.
i forgot wad i ate. corrine was there studying.
so hardworking luh she hahahaa. (: den jon walked
past me called out to me. den i pei him walk to mrt.
chat chat catch up abit on old times.

*nt phelia's classmate jon*

at 630pm hoh, wan go jp liao. den suddenly got this
burden called bruce who left his keys at club, so we
wait for him inside mrt. nb den we call another burden called
yq. den we missed like 5 lifts, walking arnd in circles.

u know why we took the lift? because the escalator had
this yellow blockage, we enter liao door close den the
fucking blockage was taken away. KNN! so i buay song,
wait the lift go up den i solo go down back.

i went to take the escalator again, knn damn song liao.
inside very high suddenly halfway, the escalator stop.
WTF? den i stared up saw xj staring at me, laughing.
lampa la, i reach up there kena say " like dog ".

cheebyeeeeeeeee, not my day today la. kns.
den wait 4 train, 2min 2min 2min 4min, den we saw
bruce coming with his curve partner, so clearly
from our view. 2 slackers walking. hais, dey reach
liao that time nid wait another train. 4mins =.=
2min > 4min. omg la. hais hais. btw only after 15mins
den we board lift de. imagine how long we waited uh.

reached home, ate dinner rot until 9+ den napped till 12.
wake up no game so thrash talk until 2am. thats
when SOMEONE made me KILL BRAINCELLS for like
2hours? LOL! nb, full 2hours concentrating.

hahahaha. ohya when i woke i was joined the call on skype.
it was a mass conver, den i on my volume. i heard this
drumming and piano, so i tot it was some fag playing it.

den i made afew lame jokes den i check thru my browser
tabs, i realised the sound was coming from.. MINICLIPS
OMG =.= !!!! some stupig xmm introduce me that game
this afternoon. i then intro those suckers play hahahaa.

time check : 5am. guess i shld head to neverland soon ba.
after this song then, tong hua by guang liang~ dunno
how to save money, everyday spend over 20 on food,
this coming mon another sakae. hais. ): emo.

readers pls do take 4mins of ur life to listen to this song (:
its kinda nice, nt really my type of song but =/

feeling so sweet ; 4:36 AM;Y

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

i just hope that things arent already set in stone.
even so, i would wait a hundred, no a thousand, no.. 1 million years.
for the stone to become dust.

i promise, till tis heart of mine decides to somehow, stop beating.

feeling so sweet ; 1:51 AM;Y

Monday, August 24, 2009

u guys shld watch the proposal (:

watched it sometime back, its really nice
except the ending. although the ending was
predictable and not so brilliant, the show was
a yes-yes. especially the 'morning rod' LOL!!

up is nice, watched twice already. everything was
cool except dogs flying in planes =.= omg man. sibei
turn off hahaha. on lili's bdae was the first time seeing.
idk why we call li lili anw, maybe its been used too much.

today will be a big day. dad's birthday & many stuff. (:

if anyone's wondering how i'm doing nowadays,
well im downright down? appropriate use of words?
i keep thinking and thinking and thinking.

i used to follow my gut feeling, it is very accurate, but
somehow i begin to doubt it now, because sometimes
the right decisions i make hurt and bother more than
wrong decisions.

still, decisions are mine to make, coz im the one suffering
and gaining from it, only i am to regret my decisions.
well kinda anti-climax hahahaa but im gonna cut off here.

good nite.

feeling so sweet ; 3:53 AM;Y

Sunday, August 23, 2009

EMO! TIO PWN + NOODLES!
IMBA SUNDAY! KENA PS FOR EVERYTHING UH!

): at least can save money, anyway, updated a link.

http://nailpolishesmylife.blogspot.com/

emily's new blog D: from SP Year 3 DTRM i think xD
thx for linking me also. ~

feeling so sweet ; 6:39 PM;Y

woooo, im back (:
sorry for the long hiatus.
wasnt feeling too well.

anyway went for supper at east coast park.
ate oysters, satay, hokkien mee, fishball, coconut
sugarcane, mee goreng. spam ah spam ah spam. haha

den reached home chiong noodles & chinese tea. shiok~

tml going sakae for lunch - dinner xD hahaha~ foooood.

and nowadays kinda lonely uh, no one pei me play gunbound.
)): alone very sad uh. so only can dota lo, dota oso kinda sian.
making those ppl who lose feel emo and sad. hais.

is that wad it is? to be happy, someone needs to be sad?
if that is so, why is it i'm always the sad one?

feeling so sweet ; 4:09 AM;Y

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Does the pain outweigh the pride?

feeling so sweet ; 5:06 AM;Y

Saturday, August 15, 2009

this is a very sad scene, where the guy finally admits
he likes her and she likes him but she cant reciprocate
=/

anyway yes, ive chionged finish mvp valentine aka
mvp qing ren in 3 days. its a nice show, esp the ost.
i dun find xiaoxi(angela) attractive at all luh. ohman
and that yan xing shu is so imba. (duan chen feng)

hahahaha. ok ill stop talking bullshit.

today, had tea with jiehui @ fc3. bought waffleton
with 2 scoops. the auntie dunno is jian or wad,
coz is always go back den select icecream ma, she
nv say so... only left mocha, mint & choc.

i took the mint, and i didnt expect it to have bits of
choc in it =/ ohman that was sad. den let jh eat D:

after that i go the vanda room or how u spell for
cass's got talent. they really got talent lor. unlike
dmit =/ hais. nt putting people down but compared to
us, cass can easily thrash us hahahaa.

there was one particular singer who sang "listen - beyonce"
she stood out imo, for the first time, i really took
a liking to a beyonce's song. she was pretty & sang well~

at 730pm i then left for auditorium's SP GOT TALENT.
think its cadc's event. i enter liao jitao got one guy
mimic michael jackson. the entire routine was the copy
of mj. but that he was slower and less fluent compared
to other videos ive seen hahaha.

hmm aiya nth much to say liao. 5am already.
how long have i been typing this post? gdnite all~

feeling so sweet ; 4:30 AM;Y

Thursday, August 13, 2009

tonight would be the perfect night to sing this ^^

牵你手,跟着我走,风再大又怎样,你有了我,再也不会迷路方向

" 陪你去看'流星雨'落在这地球上, 让你的泪落在我肩膀 "

要你相信我的爱只肯为你勇敢, 你会看见幸福的所在~

- perseid meteor shower

xingwang followed by movie "up" was good. the waitress
seemed to remember us, keep beo beo beo. must be
the sugar incident HAHAHAHA!!!

feeling so sweet ; 1:27 AM;Y

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

finally gonna get my omnia ii by this week,
alot of 'sacrifices' were made, guess ill need
to treat it well.

today, business talentime was good. ((:
had a great time with petrine, jialing, corrine & del.
jialing helped me do something bad ^^ *grateful*
also need to thank leo for the free tix hahaha.
*edit : im goooood at remembering numbers ^^ *

后来　我总算学会了　如何去爱
可惜你　早已远去　消失在人海
后来终于在眼泪中明白
有些人　一旦错过就不再

feeling so sweet ; 2:54 AM;Y

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

talk about failure after failure (:
im just a failure. failures dont deserve sleep.
neither do they deserve anything.
i should just rot and die.

im so much of a failure, i rot before i even die!
aint that epic?

hopefully, tomorrow, a flowerpot drops onto me,
and this world would have ridded itself of a burden.

& long live the jc gal & ahlian @ serangoon mac today.

feeling so sweet ; 5:02 AM;Y

Sunday, August 9, 2009

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am

in my case, to me, you were the total opposite.

anyway yesterday morning, 2:19am. an 'elvin ng' admirer
popped online, we chatted awhile and i joked how it was
a miracle she came online and asked for a 4d number,
somehow, she gave me her new handphone number,
but only she could only type the first 4 digits because
idk y her msn type 8 digits will have some error.

that 4 numbers ibet came out 3rd price. 12 combi =.=
imagine i buy $5, returns $205. woah. song bo.
den would have owed her several macdonald treats D:

and today, i pangseh alot of people. hais. idk wad im doing.
idunnowadimgonnadotomorrowliao, but 6am go queensway =/
idunnowhywhywhywhythatplacemakesmefeelsoweird

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE (: & shihua (: & shujuan (:

feeling so sweet ; 3:38 AM;Y

Thursday, August 6, 2009

do read this post with scrutiny
you would be able to understand me better.

thanks to the many people who..
support me, be there for me to the end.
u guys are really my brothers and sisters yeah.
u guys know who you are & im really happy (:

listening to music, trying to picture and imagine
what each artist singer is having in his/her mind
when placing the entire soul into his voice.

trying to match each and every individual situation
to parts and parcels of my life. thinking about life.

" ... so keep breathing,

i said that i'll always be there,

now i mean it more than ever before... "

i have smiled throughout the night, mainly due to
music videos im watching. i swear, its been a long time
since i smiled this much and long, its a warm feeling.
something i have not felt for a long time.

first off, a video i watch 8 times-in-a-row.
do watch it, i kept smiling and nearly tear-ed.

next was.. wad nelson showed us, i laughed
because i dreamed of being a hero and i always
wanted to be one, even up till now.

LOL!!! just laughed like siao @ 3.41am thx to an idiot xmm.
she made me remember something, a joyful event in my life.
thanks ahfeng LOL!!! im still laughing. poor thing doing stsb.

aye, omnia II whole sg no stock for a week le ba. 1 or 2 days~

" ...and so you think that you know,

how the end of the story goes,

that's a page i rewrote... "

feeling so sweet ; 3:13 AM;Y

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

i had this really really weird dream. damn freaky,
and this dream has come many times, but in a series.
this time, i had dreamt of it, totally having the same
scenarios, but a more complete version.

i was in ipoh, my malaysian hometown, where...
suddenly, the night was so dark, we dare not wind
down our car windows.. the nxt moment, i was at
my grandmother's house in ipoh.

* fact file : it is the place where we always celebrate
chinese new year almost everyime. *

i was playing with this strangely attractive girl...
strangely white, in my dream, i am calling her cousin
sister. and she is my 3rd uncle's daughter. but you
see, my uncle doesnt have this daughter =.=

many times i have had this dream, i would never
question ask myself why. could she be the baby that
had been miscarriaged? also, in my dream, i 'knew' that
she could not remember anything about her past.

in my dream also , i had 'memories' taking her to for meals,
going out shopping and to play, and suddenly just then,
after appearing back at the house, i talked to her.

it went something like,

me - " hey, whats your name? "
she - *cries* " I DUNNO, I CANT RMB "

- suddenly, the 'fact' that she can't remember kicks in -

me - " oh shit, sorry, i didnt know "
she - *cries louder & runs*
me - " oh man, i forgot "
she - " DUN USE THE WORD 'FORGOT' "

when she said that, i closed my eyes, i swear, really swear,
i felt guilt in that dream, it was like i knew it was a dream,
and i felt like crying.

*nxt day*

both uncles came down, bringing their wife and children.

* fact file : as my father is the eldest of the family, we get
to stay in grandma's house for the whole of cny *

the strange white girl was holding onto one of my 3rd uncle's
daughter, normal uh. she stared at me, i just looked back at her.

*night*

i went to the garden at the back, the courtyard? idk. suddenly,
monsters starting appearing off the ground, looking like grime.
i shouted for my father to use the flamethrower to burn them.
but he was slow in reaction so i had to shout for him to turn
and move around and aim.

finally we finished our task, den we back to the living room,
the front door swung open. even the handle automatically turned.
the wind was imba, i am using my body weight to press against
the door, yet after sometime, i suddenly was being flung,
about 10m away from the door, my jaw whacked the tv table.

my 2 uncles were shocked, u could imagine them uh,
their mouths open, hands frozen on the flipped-open
newspaper they were holding. i grew angry, chiong back
to the door and held onto it real hard this time, thru
the gaps, i suddenly saw a moving red shadow, it was fire.

i took a peek out. all the other 3 cars in the porch were
on fire and destroyed except my father's. i started shouting,
den everyone went out to see. they seem to know something
from their faces, but then i suddenly woke up.

the many times i dreamed of this, was the adventures and
the whole cny part without this gal, and more of the car
rides that were in extreme darkness. the other times were
about this particular 'cousin' of mine.

i dunno why but this left a really really bad taste in my mouth.
maybe i will understand everything the next time.

okok anti-climax, taken from huishi's blog :
very very nice versionof big bang's haru haru

feeling so sweet ; 2:26 PM;Y

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

my headache is still there uh.
wonder why it doesnt go away.
really really wonder why.

it clouds my judgement & spoils my mood.
side effects of medicine? i guess not.
sleeping thus has become a chore.
the headache keeps me awake.

feeling so sweet ; 11:11 PM;Y

when will you stop this game? ]:
i have already lost...

feeling so sweet ; 3:53 AM;Y

Saturday, August 1, 2009

im still awake, although i power levelled up from
'headache' to 'excruciating splitting headache'

my throat hurts much worse than castration.
all the symptoms of h1n1 & then some except fever.

ytd went ion~ its big siol.

reach liao hp batt dying le, sibei sad.

alot chiobu uh that place (: high high,
the gal at the basement food area at the Tori Q stall zai.

omg now i also rmb, got some jc ppl all wearing red,
dey board the train at city hall. power power ((:

the old chang kee sotong ball sold out ! ):
den got lost ): den go burberry & zara buy clothes.
only that im not the one buying. i really saw a beautiful
shirt at zara and i wanted to buy it but kena say gay?!?!?
damn chio can? 2 lines & a x in the middle and gold dots.

omgomgomg so cool. $50 nia somemore,
not like someone one burberry polo $200+.

their toilets damn imba, can fight with hotels but nt all.
den met helmi wif his gf. his hair now damn imba, guess
most malays who think they are cool are like that.

den go down to xinwang to eat, saw kelly soh.
tripped on someone's leg when staring at her.
was so shocked LOL!!! power. den dey stare at me.
D: so paiseh can and xia suay. lol!!!

after that walk walk abit, met samuel, wenping & 1 more.
talk abit den we go xinwang eat. heng my call to eat early.
if nt full house le yeah!!! den go in i jitao order dun care
the others :D . ate alot, den talk alot jiaowei. sibei fun 2hrs.

i keep making the guy waiters keep my dishes and try
to get a different female waitress to serve us each time we
order a tub of dian xin. the most funny part was when lili
drink tio unmelted sugar. change liao den complain to us.
the waitress just behind nia stunned LOL!!!!

she den giggled and like dunno where to put face lol.

ok luh eat finish den order like nobody's buiness.

den wanted to buy mango mountain eat and share.
*really brings back memories uh ): haiss *
den feel bloated so nvm, x:

see wad i ordered at first, so imba liao. ((:

den got this waitress come and jiaowei, keep joke
and talk with us, in the end we go buy the membership.
i wanna buy de, but nxt birthday was lili de, so the name
in the end not mine den rolexkia baokaliao. (:

left liao go walk walk, walk walk walk, go arnd town.
went to crumpler as i needed a new pouch, dun haf ):

den we go find ka.. i mean joanne x: erm erm, i shall
not comment much here. so like that we ended our trip
at tangs, where i spent $$$$$.

how am i gonna get my OMNIA II this way ):

at the mrt station, was sitting at the steps, where suddenly
a group of ahbeng walk pass, i saw a hottie, i chua sai.
it was estella lol. she stare stare, i there oso stuned, cannot
wave or wad =/ hehehe. went home msn den cfm.

plus an indonesian chi auntie, in her early 30s, talked to me,
asking abt ez link etc and going malaysia, gave her directions,
brought her to the sama sama, aiya dun drag so long liao.

den her chi fren or daughter came along, quite pretty sia hahaha,
knn i didnt do such things coz i saw that gal lor!! its pure luck,
karma for doing such a good deed, even called up my dad to cfm
the bus number going into malaysia. ((((:

reached home late. tired. still got ignored. FML. ):

feeling so sweet ; 10:30 PM;Y